Duty and Guilt

Duty and Guilt

*SLASH*

Darren cuddled closer to Daniel on the sofa. The fire was roaring and candles were lit, it was an ice cold January afternoon. From the glass door, a blanket of snow could be seen coating the ground. The outside looked cold, lonely and unforgiving, but Daniels living room was warm, cosy and bright.

His break up with his wife, Felicity, seemed centuries away. It was hard to believe that he and Daniel had only been together for two months.

Daniel stretched and wrapped his arm around Darren, drawing him closer. He didn't speak; he simply smiled and glanced away again.

That was something that often got to Darren, dating Daniel could sometimes be like being a psychic. Danny preferred actions and looks instead of words, when he did speak, it was so quiet and gentle that Darren would sometimes have to strain to hear.

Darren had begun to get used to this though, looking back, it was what had attracted him to Daniel in the first place. He was a mystery.

The fire crackled, but for almost an hour, not a word passed between them. Daniel gently moved his hand so that it was clamped around Darren's, but apart from that, they hardly moved.

Darren still gasped whenever he felt Daniel's hand against his. There was something about holding hands that made him feel eager and happy, but also awkward and embarrassed all at one moment. He loved how tightly Daniel squeezed his hand it made him feel special.

"Dazza?" Daniel broke the silence.

Darren shivered slightly to see the handsome blonde staring at him. Then, without another word, Daniel moved forward. His lips brushed Darren's before he parted his lips altogether and explored his mouth gently. Darren, unsure of what to do, followed Daniels lead and began to also worm his tongue into his partner's mouth.

It was as though sparks had collided, waves had crashed and angels had rained down from the heavens all at once for Darren. He was taken over with the beauty of the sweet kisser that he was in lip-lock with. Each kiss with this man was as magical as their very first. He had a way of making him feel special without even moving.

Daniel pulled away from the kiss and ran his long, slender fingers through Darren's jet-black hair. He then allowed his lips to brush Darren's neck.

Darren shivered; his neck had always been a sensitive part.

"Shhhhh, relax." Daniel purred before leaning down and kissing it ferociously.

He was soon sucking at the skin. Darren moaned in pain and pleasure all in one moment as his body broke out in goose bumps. Daniel finally withdrew from the neck before sinking his teeth into the bruised flesh.

Darren attempted to cry out and tell his lover how good it felt, but the words escaped him. He could barely move, he was paralysed with pleasure.

Daniel finally withdrew from his skin once more and kissed him gently on the cheek before cuddling him closer.

"That felt so good." Darren finally said, when his voice returned to him.

Daniel merely grinned in reply and moved Darren's hand over his crotch. It was the first time Darren had ever touched him there. Even through his jeans he could feel how hard Daniel had become.

"How about it, Dazza?" He asked with a wink.

A thousand thoughts raced through Darren. Could he do this? After all, it would be his first time with a man. Was it what he wanted? Was he ready? There was one question that troubled him most though. Would Daniel dump him if he didn't?

He finally made up his mind and fell to his knees in front of his lover.

He sucked hard and fast to the best of his ability. As he sucked, he looked up to Daniel for his approval. He was terrified in case he was doing something wrong.

"Dazza, you are good!" Daniel moaned as he felt himself ready to release.

Darren grew a little more confident then. He sucked and sucked hungrily until he finally felt a warm, bitter taste fill his mouth.

Suddenly his mind was filled with a dilemma, spit or swallow? He glanced around for a cup or something to dispose of the unique essence that filled his mouth, but found nothing. He took a deep breath before swallowing quickly.

There was a sudden pause as Daniel relaxed back on the sofa to get his breath back. His whole body was sweating.

"Are ya not gonna come here and allow me to return the favour?" Daniel finally asked cheerfully.

"Yeah, okay." Darren replied, trying to mask his nervousness. He wasn't sure whether he wanted Daniel to pleasure him or not. One half of him was excited and the other was scared.

He moved onto the sofa next to Daniel and sat down. He gasped as Daniel unbuttoned his shirt for him and stripped it from him.

"Turn around." He said, simply.

Darren did as he was told and Daniel began to gently massage his back and shoulders.

"You seemed a little tense." He whispered in his ear.

Darren barely heard the whisper.

After the massage, Darren laid down on his back on the sofa. Daniel grinned at him in a way that made a shiver run down his spine. He pulled off Darren's jeans and boxers and then set to work on him. Darren moaned and arched his back with pleasure as Daniel sucked harder and harder. He was sure that it was the best oral sex he had ever experienced.

He finally came and Daniel looked deep into his eyes as he swallowed. There was something about that that scared Darren, yet turned him on in the same instant. After that, Daniel took off his own clothes and cuddled next to Darren.

Daniel enjoyed the sudden intimacy; it felt good to be so close to Darren. He wrapped his arms around him protectively, with 5 years more life experience he often felt most dominant.

On the other hand, Darren wasnt so sure about the intimacy. As they lay so close, he began to think. Sure, he had enjoyed it, but at the same time he felt a little bit forced. After all, if Daniel hadnt suggested it he would never have done it.

He began to feel a little dirty and queasy, yet clinging onto Daniel made him feel a little better. He was so confused.

"Danny, do you mind if I take a nap? Youve kind of worn me out." He said trying to sound relaxed.

Instead of replying, Daniel led him up the stairs and to his bedroom where they both relaxed in Daniel's bed.

Daniel was first of the pair to fall asleep, Darren laid awake for over an hour, staring at the ceiling and thinking. Finally, he couldnt take it anymore; He could feel tears pricking the back of his eyelids and a lump in his throat.